It Won’t Always Be Like This

I’m deep into a double coffee and Diet Coke day to get through the workload. I’m so desperately tired from kids who are sick or don’t sleep through the night. I’m trying my very best to get through the day, workweek, and year. I want to pursue my career and be a good mom. I want to take care of myself but sometimes only my latest dentist appointment feels like relaxing. I know there will be a day when I walk to the coffee shop and sit down with a book without anxiety about rushing and shuffling. That day will come and I’ll await the calls from my kids and be hopeful for invitations to be with them.

It won’t always be like this.

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There Isn’t Perfection in Motherhood

There isn’t perfection in motherhood. I am good enough in motherhood just as I am, with flaws and mistakes. Before becoming a mom I was addicted to the pursuit of perfection and equally addicted to the praise. I’ve been driven by being a hard worker, trying not to make any mistakes, I bounce balls continuously, and … Continue reading

When Mother’s Day Isn’t Perfect

Mother’s Day Isn’t Perfect. We shouldn’t expect Mother’s Day to be perfect because motherhood isn’t perfect. Define, celebrate and reflect on motherhood in your own way. I waited impatiently for the light to blink and indicate the street was safe to cross. Late for a meeting, my mind was clouded and I just wanted to … Continue reading

Losing Me in Motherhood

I was losing me in motherhood. Stranded in motherhood by the monotony of laundry, carpool logistics, and meal planning. Stuck in picking up the toys, refereeing sibling fights and begging them to put on their shoes. Mom. Mom. Mom. I wanted to change my name. I wanted time alone. I was at the point where … Continue reading

The Sadness When You’re Done Having Babies

If you’re done having babies and you feel moments of sadness, don’t be ashamed. It’s okay to feel both confidence and sadness. It is possible to feel both confident and sad in your decision about being done having babies. It is okay to be sad and take the time to grieve the end of having … Continue reading

To The Mamas Underwater

When my second baby was born at 11 pounds, I was peppered with the same statements about sleeping that I was given when I had my 9.5 pound baby, “Oh you know the nice thing about big babies? They sleep!” I would kindly nod when these parenting experts would share their wisdom about sleep and … Continue reading